Having any kind of teeth work really sucks!!! I had a root canal in late November due to a tooth rupturing. Unfortunately, it is hurting like hell today and I have to go back to the dentist. Yuck!!!
Boredom
December 12, 2008 at 3:03 pm (rants)
Being bored is an odd feeling. One would think it would be relaxing, but sadly it is not. It is actually quite stressful. Your head is constantly trying to think of something to do. It’s only then, when you have finally found something to do, that you get a task or your world explodes. I much prefer to have a little something to do at all times. No crazy slow time and no crazy stress out time. Unfortunately that’s just how my world works. One day you have a million things to do the next you have nothing!!! So right now at this very moment I am almost bored to tears!!! I guess I better work a little harder to find something to do. 
November thoughts
November 5, 2008 at 2:49 pm (Crazy life, rants)
The weather is finally chilling a bit, and in most of the country it is autmn. In Houston, however, it is the most beautiful time of the year. I so miss the chill of winter coming, but I will get to feel the crisp west Texas wind on my face soon enough. I am getting married on November 29th in Lubbock. I am hoping for some snow. How beautiful would that be? Granted I would be a little cold, but I think I can manage for the beautiful quiet and peace that the snow brings.
Hurricane Ike
October 1, 2008 at 1:58 pm (Crazy life)
When I first heard that Hurricane Ike could be coming our way, I thought, like a lot of people, we would be missed. Unfortunately we weren’t. This is an account of what happened to us.
Joe kept texting me the Wednesday before it hit that he was having a bad feeling about Ike. No one was really sure where it was going, but Houston was definitely in the line of fire. After watching all day Wednesday, I decided I needed to listen to Joe. We got home from work, packed our bags, boarded up the house, and headed to Austin. Thankfully there was no traffic. We arrived in Austin at his sister Lauren’s house. We were tired but already our eyes were glued to the TV like macaroni on a child’s construction paper. The next morning we grabbed our things and the dogs and headed to Joe’s parent’s house in Lubbock. My parents live much closer to the water and their store is in Seabrook. I kept telling them to leave and finally at 4 or so they did. A mandatory evacuation was called by noon that day for our area and my parent’s area.
When we got to Lubbock, all we wanted to do was watch the pretty lights on the TV. We decided to go up to J’s (a restaurant his parents own in Lubbock) and get hurricanes for the hurricane. Bad idea. We both felt it the next day! That was fine with us though since all we wanted to do was watch the weather channel and see what Ike would bring. By Friday evening Ike was felt in Houston. It was a catch 22 because we wanted to see what would happen, but it was sad at the same time. The next day, Ike had passed and definitely left his mark. It’s quite surreal to see the places you know and love on national news torn to bits. We stayed in Lubbock until Wednesday and got back to Houston Thursday. The drive back was odd.
Driving into Houston you could tell something big had happened. All over town trees were down and roofs were covered in blue tarps. We were anxious to see our neighborhood and house. Thankfully all that was wrong were a few big tree limbs down. Mom and dad were not as lucky. Out of 12 trees, 10 of them up-rooted. One fell on the shed, one fell on the garage, and one on the front of the house. They also had a leak in their master bath. The clear lake area is definitely different.
There seems to be a depressed spirit over this area now. Neighborhoods are not the same. People lost houses, memories, and the life they had made. Boats still line the streets torn apart never to return to the sea. I never thought this would actually happen or that when it did it would effect me so much. It’s weird going to work and knowing your co-workers are staying in hotels and have no home to go to at night. It’s very sobering and strange. Ike’s wrath is evident and unfortunately will be for a while.
random thoughts
September 9, 2008 at 10:55 am (Crazy life, rants)
First random thought: I can’t wait to get married again!! It’s happening soon and I’m excited!! We aren’t really having a ceremony. I’m more excited about just being with Joe then having a party. You know it’s funny that you always hear that you just know when it’s right…well I finally just know!!!
Second random thought: hurricanes suck!!! You think it’s gonna hit you, then it’s not, then it is again. Seriously…make up your mind Mother Nature!
Third random thought: “You are dead to me” is the best line ever!! Say it, stomp your foot, and walk off. Nothing else is as dramatic and funny!!!
Fourth random thought: relaxing is really nice. There are fewer things nicer then getting off work and doing NOTHING!!!!!!
Fifth random thought: I’m totally jonesin for a new tattoo!!!
Sixth random thought: Salamander’s are cute!!!!!!
Seventh random thought: It’s time for a vacation!!!!
letting go
August 21, 2008 at 11:49 am (rants)
Why is it so hard to let go of the past? This is a question I ask myself daily. Is it human nature to try and hang on for as long as possible? I have come to the conclusion that we do this because of fear. We, as human being, are afraid of what is to come in the future. We cling to what we have known because it is safe and comfortable. Branching out into something new is scary. There are so many new feelings and new things to learn that we want to cower back to what is safe. Eventually though we are forced to let go and rely on our memories.
Over the past year I have struggled with letting go. I don’t struggle with letting go of the bad times, but I do struggle to let go of the good. I just don’t want to ever forget the good. I have realized that as long as I don’t want to loose these memories I won’t. I do have to let go of the people though. That’s the tricky part.
Leaving people behind that you have cared about is not easy. Sometimes though it’s necessary. As of right now, I have decided to let these people go. It’s time to move on in my life. Yeah…I’m afraid, but I know my life cannot truly flourish until I say good bye. It is now time to let go!!!!
a new mantra
July 31, 2008 at 10:46 am (Crazy life)
Over the past few weeks, life has thrown some hard hits at my family, friends, and me. Well…as bad as it gets, it could always be worse. That’s right…IT COULD BE WORSE!!! Just think about it. No matter what happens, whether it be hitting a deer or not having power, if you still have your health, a bed, food, and a roof over your head you are doing just fine!!!
Finally, after almost being on this planet for 30 years, I am starting to figure a few things out. Does it suck my grandma broke her hip and I hit a deer? Of course it does, but she is doing good and Joe, Sly, Daisy, and I all walked away from the car after hitting Bambi. In the past, I probably would have tripped out. Now, I just count it as my life and move on. That’s really all you can do when the universe flings a flaming wad of poo at you.
Not to mention, if Joe and I can get through this universal flaming crap, we can probably make it through just about anything. Instead of fighting about things, we have joined together and worked through them. It really is amazing to have a partner in life that wants to work through things. It’s quite nice really.
Wow…that sounded adult. I think I just scared myself! Well, at least I feel as though I have grown up a little bit…or a lot over the past year. This new mantra just makes me realize this and want to move on to better, greener passtures over the coming year! Cheers!!!!
